A few days ago, I made the decision to try to work on my music again in my spare time. As a result, I made the decision to reacquaint myself with GarageBand. For those of you who do not know, GarageBand is the stock music program that comes with all Macs.
Like many young aspiring musicians, I began experimenting with the software within minutes of taking my first Mac out of its packaging. After being disappointed with the quality of the tracks I was able to create by connecting my keyboard to my laptop, I started combining different loops together in order to try to create something that was pleasing to my ears. Unfortunately, nothing quite met my standards (because all the tracks sounded like they belonged in car commercials.)
In spite of my vague recollection of my GarageBand failure, I decided that it would be in my best interests to revisit those old tracks in my efforts to move forward. When I listened to them years later, I was pleasantly surprised. The tracks as a whole reminded me of that youthful zeal that I had six years ago when I was thoroughly convinced that I could change the world with music I created through my laptop. Sure some of the tracks were horrible–some sounded like car commercials or lost selections from the Sonic the Hedgehog soundtrack–but a few of them were not as embarrassing as I had remembered them to be.
As I listened to the tracks, I found myself wondering what happened to the young seminarian I was six years ago. In many ways, it’s as if he has completely vanished. He was naive, yet ambitious. He was very idealistic and truly believed in his heart that he could do all things through Christ who strengthened him. Even then, he dealt with a lot of criticism. People generally weren’t sure what to make of him or his ministry. Still, he was more amused by it than anything else.
Maybe I’ll get back there someday.